Never Gutless

They can take my bowels,

but you will never take my guts.

When I was in the fourth grade I got really sick. I had to leave school; I was in and out of the hospital for a year before they finally figured out what I had. At first they thought it might be cancer, but doctor’s eventually determined that I had a relatively unknown illness at the time, Crohn’s Disease. Needless to say my family had never heard of it. With a steady regimen of pills I fought Crohn’s War I for 4 years and sent it into remission before I got into high school. Then, for 10 years, I lived a normal life. I slowly slipped into a false sense security, forgetting that my body was fundamentally broken. The war wasn’t over, it had just gone cold.

The escalation into Crohn’s War II began again in 2011, when I started to have increasingly poor health. I chalked it up to poor diet, overwork, and stress. I smoked too much and drank waaaaay too much Red Bull. Life in Japan was never easy for me, even if I did have a decent command of the language and a Japanese wife. In the wake of the great Japan quake on 3/11 things got pretty messed up over there (maybe you saw something about it on the news). My life was chaotic as hell, and even though my family was safe in Tokyo, we were not together at the time, so panic and frustration trying to contact each-other was incredibly tough. I was safe in the mountains North of Fuji, nowhere near the real damage done along the coast and in Fukushima, but even still the ground shook so badly that the pavement rippled like a wave at the train station and I almost got my head cut off by an oncoming express train when I got knocked down on the train platform.

Honestly, after the quake, things never really got back to normal for me, or really anyone in Japan. I didn’t realize how badly the disease had come back until the fall of 2012 because of just how screwed life got. When I was officially recognized by doctors in Japan as having full-blown active Crohn’s disease, yet again, it was already past the point where I could just medicate with pills. Thus began Crohn’s War II. And, let me just say, war is hell.

“War, War Never Changes.” – Fallout

Now, in the fall of 2016, I have been fighting Crohn’s disease for a second four year stretch. The war isn’t over. I’m still in the thick of it, but there’s enough light on the horizon that I can take my fight to the world. That’s what this site is about. After years of avoiding talking about my disease, and how I’m fighting it, I want to take my fight into the open. One of the unfortunate realities of Crohn’s disease is how you look to the world; Crohn’s isn’t pretty, so many people that have to deal with this horrible illness keep it hidden. It’s bad for job prospects and it’s not a fashionable disease. In fact, if you were pressed, most people would probably tell you that they’ve never heard of it. I hope that this site will help to gather awareness to Crohn’s disease. I want it to be useful for people who’ve got the disease. If my stories can help people better fight Crohn’s themselves, I think I will have done something that’s worth it.

Never Gutless isn’t just my Crohn’s blog though, it’s my new way of life. They may be able to take my guts, but I’m Never Gutless. The fight with Crohn’s has left me searching for new direction and Never Gutless is my true north. Professionally speaking, I work freelance as a Japanese/English Tutor. I tutor people privately, online, and in person, through wyzantLooking for a Tutor, Greg-sensi has you covered. I would like to think that my 10+ years in education has honed me to be a more efficient tutoring machine. Why not contact me for a lesson?

The battle with Crohn’s isn’t something you go into unarmed. Some people fight with drugs; I’m definitely one of them. I have done a laundry list of treatments, some more effective than others. There are two very important aspects to fighting Crohn’s disease though that many people overlook in terms of their effectiveness: diet and stress relief. Stress is a major trigger for Crohn’s patients so stress relief is HUGE. The disease puts a lot on you, so you have to find ways of lifting all that weight off your shoulders. I tend to get the most stress relief from gaming.

I am a gamer. Very soon, you will be able to follow my gaming on Youtube and Twitch. In fact, you can already go over to Twitch and subscribe to my gaming channel. Check out my stream, Disemboweled1, at Twitch.Tv. If you follow, and tune in, you can probably catch me playing one of my favorite games. I will also be using that channel for Social Eating as well. So, if, like me, you’re into food, then you can come on down and see me pig out on some good eats, which is pretty funny, considering I have a digestive disability; you can probably guess how it all comes out. Trust me, shitting jokes abound. Hopefully my disgusting sense of humor and plethora of crapping and toilet jokes will entertain you enough that you choose to stick around, follow, and subscribe.

Now, I also do a lot of OTHER writing, mostly about gaming. I used to run a site called The Dump Stat, which was specifically about Dungeons and Dragons – or at least it was supposed to be – then I got sidetracked from my powergaming ways. The site evolved into a general gaming site and from there kind of took off. I’ve brought that blog back, and hopefully I’ll be updating it quite frequently. It’s gone through a bit of rebranding to take in its larger scope: Of Dice and Lan – my gaming blog; come visit, comment, and subscribe for e-mail updates.

Finally, I also do work by day as a part time grub streeter, editor and proofreader as well as a translator of Japanese to English on minor projects. As a member of the Society of Writers, Editors and Translators for several years in Japan, I’ve been doing work for individuals and small companies. I’ve edited books, provided beta-reviews on novels, and translated websites. Feel free to contact me using the form below if you would like me to edit, or proof your work in progres. I’m also open as a reviewer, mainly for beta-reads. I will contact you back with all haste.